Thursday, March 31, 2011

Latest Doctor's Appointment

My Dear Baby,

I was too tired yesterday to tell you about the appointment we had with your Doctor yesterday so here we go!

Daddy and I went to see the Doctor. She checked Mommy's pelvis and uterus to make sure everything looked and felt right. She also did another ultrasound on you! You have grow a TON in 2 weeks!! Pretty much DOUBLED in size!! Crazy stuff!

Mommy's heartbeat is still too loud for us to be able to hear your's. But we did get to SEE you heartbeat flickering in the ultrasound which was REALLY neat! :) (Daddy was a little bummed that we didn't get to hear it.)

Great Gma called yesterday evening to make sure you are growing like you are supposed to. (I told her you are don't worry) She is VERY excited to meet you! You will be her VERY FIRST great grandbaby! :)

I think that is all I have for now.

As always, Daddy and I love you with all our hearts!!
Mommy

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

We have made it a quarter of the way my love!!

My darling baby,

This week we celebrate being a quarter of the way into our journey of birth!! I am 10 weeks pregnant with you!

The nausea has mostly subsided (thank you!) and now I just seem to have headaches everyday and I seem to be exhausted but wide awake!

I watched a couple of documentaries today on birthing in America and well to say the least I am disappointed in our system. Makes me want to move to another country because even though this is America (And I love our country my darling), it sometimes feels like we have gotten away from things that shouldn't be passed over in life. Birth being one of them.

Tomorrow morning, we get to go see the doctor again. She's going to do a pelvic check up on mommy. I am secretly hoping that she would also agree to check for your heartbeat again :D

OH! I almost forgot my dear! Mommy was trying to sleep a little bit ago and I don't know if this was gas or you but I swear I could feel my uterus moving around LOL! I guess you didn't like the way I was laying. Oh well.

I think that is all my darling. I love you so much! Daddy loves you so much! (And I am sure Tippi will love you too!)

With my heart!
Mommy

Monday, March 28, 2011

What you are willing to fight for.

My dear baby,

I want you to know that in life you will have to work and fight for what you want and need. This has atleast been my expierence in the last 26 years. Granted you generally pick your battles, but my darling you have to fight for the battles that count.

For example, Mommy wants to be here at home working when you get here. So, this means that I am going to have to work my little tushie off till you get here. I have found my motivation space and I need to stay in that. And you and your Daddy, are my motivation. I want to be a good Mommy and a good wife. I want to make sure that if Daddy wants to, when you get here, he can take the whole month off from work - so long as we have enough saved up for the bills.

I want to promise you my darling that I will try my damnedest NOT to tell you about our money - whether it be good or bad. I want you to be a kid, and not grow up too fast.

I will also, try very hard to share you with the world my darling! Mommy may try to be very over protective sometimes and for that I want to apologize in advance. I never really thought I would get the gift of you in my life darling. You are my heart. And your Daddy is my soul!

And before this gets WAY too mushy - Mommy is going to sign off! :)

I love you beautiful child.
Mommy

Sunday, March 27, 2011

With a sigh of reluctancy

My dearest sweet baby,

Mommy is really upset with herself right now.. I feel really bad because it is looking more and more like I won't get to stay home with you on a permanent basis when you come out to the world. It's looking like mommy is going to have to go back to work..

I feel like I have let you down. I know that you are still 7 months away but I am worried that by going back to work now I am not going to be able to stay home with you. I don't want to miss any of your firsts!! I am almost disgusted with myself for not being more disciplined to make money with the few avenues that I have already! I am so angry with myself. And so sad.

Daddy is still so very excited that you are coming! He's taking such amazing care of us! We are both so very lucky to have him in our lives, my darling.

I love you so much mija! <3
Mommy

Monday, March 21, 2011

Thank you My Darling Baby!

First of all - I want to show the world the very first picture of you!




You are the two little round orbs there in my uterus! Oh what a stir you have already caused the world around you my love!! <3


Secondly, Mommy would like to take a second to say thank you to you. You have settled my nausea for the last two days! I am so thankful to be able to start feeling a bit more healthier these days! Like I can actually accomplish something without dying every 15 minutes! So, thank you my dear little one! <3


And thirdly, I love you. I love you so much that every time I think about it my heart feels like it may explode!!!  You and your Daddy are the LOVES of my life! I look forward to our meeting a little more every day!


With my heart!
Mommy

Saturday, March 19, 2011

The red haze..

My Dearest Baby,

I promise when you come out into the world that mommy will not be so angry all the time! I am sure you have felt my moods change several times a day and I know it's part of the pregnancy but I am still sorry that you aren't feeling how happy and elated mommy really is about you growing in her.

I love you so dearly and even though I feel like crap a lot lately I am so truly happy and humbled that you are growing in me!

Your daddy is very excited too. Though he shows more of his stress about money and being a good daddy. The other day Daddy and I were laying on the couch watching tv and Daddy started "petting" you in my tummy! Hahaha! Your Daddy is funny and I am sure he will make you laugh all the time! :)

Hopefully, by the time you are born your fuzzy siblings will get along a little better cause right now they make me crazy!!! I have been yelling at them for two days now! :( I think that is part of the stress I feel right now..

I can't wait until Daddy and I get married and then we will all be McMurtry's :) We will be a whole family. With our 2 cats, 1 dog and 1 frog!

You will have so many different explorations just in your first year! I can't wait to watch you grow outside of the womb!

I love you mi nino!
Mommy

Monday, March 14, 2011

Nausea, Heartburn, and Motion Sickness. Oh My!

My Dear Baby,

You are wreaking havoc on your mommy's body! The heartburn I woke up with this morning wasn't as bad as it could have been. The motion sickness I have been experiencing sucks since I tend to have to keep my eye sight in one direction - namely straight ahead!

And my dear sweet child - oh have you made your mommy SO SO SO NAUSEOUS!!! I can't seem to be able to sit up for long or stand too long with out suddenly feeling sick to my stomach.

But on the plus side of life. Your daddy and I get to go to meet the doctor who will bring you into the world in 7 short months! She is also going to let us hear your heartbeat - I think I HOPE!

I can't wait to hear your heartbeat!
I love you my darling!
Mommy

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Dreaming of you already!

I am already dreaming of my darling daughter. Last night, you were a teenager! You got hurt and I could feel myself reach out for you to soothe you and yell for your dad at the same time! :)

You, my little sea monkey, are the love of my life (along with your daddy of course! ;P)!! You are my greatest accomplishment - even if you aren't in my arms yet. Just knowing that you are there and that the Goddess has blessed your daddy and I like this just makes my year!

We spent yesterday at Grandma Mary & Grandpa Norman's farm. We got the ok from Grandma Mary to have our wedding at the farm. And Grandma Mary is VERY excited (and I am sure once Grandpa Norm got home from work and Grandma told him, he was too!).

Next week I will be 8 weeks pregnant with you and I will have 8 weeks to get everything set for the wedding. Hopefully, this week you will work with me a little better and keep the nausea to a minimum so I can start to purge my office to turn it into a nursery for you! Don't tell Grandma Karen but she thinks she has got to come over and do it (but that's not gonna happen!)

You are quickly becoming the center of mine and Daddy's world my darling baby! We love you! <3

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Into week 7 now!

Here we are at the beginning of week 7!

All the books say my little sea monkey is tiny and very sea monkey-ish! Also, I think the heartburn has subsided for a little bit (thank goodness!) and the nausea well... I haven't puked - knock on wood! - however, it's a pain in the tush trying to do anything (like standing) without getting woosy!

After much discussion Sunday night, my loving baby daddy and I decided we want to be married before the baby gets here! We are going to be getting married on May 15th! I am so excited to be marrying my best friend - and to be starting a family with him!

I am very thankful, also, that my last day working at the grocery store was this passed Saturday and I now work for myself! YAY! Which means I get to sit instead of stand constantly! Oh and that I get the bed to myself when I goto bed cause my fiancĂ©e (omg!) is at work since I am working nights now!! hahahaha

My baby god-mommy bought us a baby journal that marks all the firsts and covers the first 3 years of my baby's life! She is going to be an amazing God Mother to my child and I know that I couldn't have ask anyone better! :D

I know I am all excited above (and I really am) but in some aspect I am worried that there isn't a baby... I know it's probably because I can't feel the baby yet except the lurches when I feel like throwing up! LOL! But I still worry that there is no sea monkey in there.. :( (Worry sucks)

Now, I think it's about time I figured out what I want for my wedding since it's coming before the baby! :D YAY!

Love & Light